I am looking to be fulfilled outside of the family unit

Suzy 45, married with 3 children. Works part time in recruitment. A wonderful cook, tried and tasted!

How are you?

My knee jerk reaction is fine even though it’s not necessarily so.

How do you think other people see you?

I’d like for people to think of me as friendly and approachable but I feel some people are a bit nervous of me;  like I’m a bit scary or something. I'm very black and white.

What are your dreams?

I am looking to be fulfilled outside of the family unit. I need to find something challenging. I have ideas about having a small shop. I want to be successful. I feel I haven't achieved what I wanted to achieve in my career. I wish I had gone to university. I think about the children leaving home too and what life will be like as a couple after they've gone.

What do you like about yourself?

I like myself I am a nice person, although I don’t like my body - well, the bottom half. It doesn't bother me in everyday life but if I go away on a girls weekend away it makes me sad that I can’t strip off in front of others, I am very body conscious.

How do you best express yourself?

Singing in the car! I don’t spend anytime on me and I like that, it says something about me. I don’t do nails, leg waxing, hair, makeup, I hate all that stuff. I don’t like being messed about with. I hate small talk. I am not high maintenance. I wear clothes until they fall off me.

I have an unfulfilled dream of being a singer in a rock band, dancing and playing the guitar. I would love to express myself by getting up there, on stage. I think of myself as outgoing but I lack the confidence. 

Who or what inspires you?

Real people. I have this friend Jenny, I love her energy - she's a real inspiration. 

What do you think about life?

It’s too short. I’m terrified of dying. As a child I used to cry myself to sleep. I am frightened of the idea. I’d love to believe in the afterlife but I don’t. One day I will cease to be. 

How have you felt about doing this today?

It’s been liberating and refreshing to talk about me. It’s interesting to think about things. There have been a couple of things that have come up that I wouldn't have necessarily said out loud and things I wouldn't have realised about myself.